Re: Rollingsexcandy.

I miss you too. Come, be with us during Lime sonic bang. Best friend's day means you must be around. I owe you hugs and kisses. And your birthday dress you wanted so much. But i need to start stealing cash again. For you, ;) Fuchinu. I love you more than any dumb fag could.

So, i've been staying home for the past two days since i got to start accepting reality that i am officially broke and done for. Baby started work already and you won't know how proud i am of him. I'm not asking for his hard earned cash, but at least now, i wouldn't have to be worrying about his whereabouts. Now, as his shrinking and losing weight girlfriend is going to support every thing that he does. And i have control over his bills because if he doesn't pay his debts, he'll know what i do. I'm so not-controlling but it's just going to be a bad habit if he continues.

Oh. Three more weeks. But it's bad luck if i tried to count.

About my previous post, Lime Sonic Bang.

It makes me write about the scene too.
From Veronica's latest blog update, fuck the scene! I do not find any cause in imitating someone's dressings to hair-dos to fanciful dyed hair and make-up. Band tees? They were 'major' months ago until someone spotted a mat rep wearing one and the 'cool kids' stopped it. Massive eyeliner because you think it's cool since all the kids are doing it too? Honestly, some girls really freak me out by defining drastic lines. I mean, you already scared me what makes you think any other guy would like you for that?

And paying ten bucks just to sit quietly at a gig watching guys doing their things. Get inside a mosh pits, and all you do is push someone or get pushed. That's not making a scene, you're just trying to be the scene. I don't know what's up with the 'scene'. It's suddenly a trend and mostly mandatory to all fucking wanks and girls-yang-step-gerek who think Alesana is cool but none could possibly know it's true genre. Ha-ha-ha-ha. I'm not saying that i am 'scene' or interested because so far you've never seen me to a gig, if you did, i would swear you would see me inside with 'really cool hair' and outstanding lip piercings with multiple badges on my pockets and being anorexia because i am vegetarian, i don't eat animals because i am straight X edge.

Peace to Veronica the thug. That bitch gave me a purpose to blog for nothing.

Siloso Beach, Sentosa
17 November, 2007
12pm - 3am

Bands performing:
Thaitanium. Summer's Over. The Great Spy Experiment. A Vacant Affair. Caracal. Plain Sunset. Saw Loser. Astroninja. Tiramisu. Force Vomit. Bad Obsession. Destroy All Monsters!. Johnny Shameless & His Minions. Stars Don't Fall. Monofone. Shirlyn Tan. Pinholes. The Fire Fight. West Grand Boulevard. Ivy's Vendetta. Sinn. Allura. The Leaven Trait. Anugerah winner. The Dance Floor winners. Campus Superstar & Live The Dream finalists. The 44 Beatz Crew DJs from 1am onwards.

Saw. Sri. Cum. Adri. Zacky. Smurf. Fuch.
Gyeah, they are my fucking best friends, you doaf.

Quirk? No.

Last night was about cuddling and biting each other's arms off. Sending text messages refusing to let go and suddenly his interest was trying to get us serious. Resting on his lap, with his two fags peeping through his bedroom curtains, that was already proof that they were.. fags.

Holding my hand was never necessary for him, but now, he grips them as if i would let go. It took him two months to get his dick head thinking. Well, whatever. Now, i am glad i found someone who could let me lie in his arms without doubts.

^^ If it's not love, then maybe i wouldn't have felt this way at all.
For once, frankly. I feel blessed.

I have this sudden quirk feeling.
About my boyfriend.

Now, that's an update.

P/s: Come il dio che è gaio lui denomina le ragazze grasse per sostegno significo, che cosa la scopata. Ovviamente omosessuale abbastanza alla funzione. Una vagina in cui la vostra bocca è perché so siete spaventati per affrontarli su una. Amo le nullità, almeno sono dissimile diritto voi. Siete appena un perdente. Con i vostri amici che sono due volte più brutti dei miei amici. E non prenderla troppo dura perché tutto dice così anche. Onesto, mi occupo della verità.

LMAO! Takmo jadi kental step cool with the Latin translations la sia. Nak step mana pya rabak je. Hahahaha. Siapa terasa, ni memang untuk kau.. =0 <- KTF.

Happy 2nd, baby. So you know, i miss you already.
Baby please. Baby tease. Balls!

Two nights ago, i was playing crackers with that British bitch. I can hardly believe she is still scared of fireworks crackling in front of her. And you're already fourteen! Face it, bitch! Lol. Ayie took the same bus as me for company and he was being really sweet. Pst, i am already done with my silkscreen prints. And i'm already over it.

Today, went to school, dog face's house and then to Bedok to watch Ween get a gruesome two hours long of hair rebonding. I ditched her after fourty-five minutes to meet Nerd. Everything went well, so overall, he's my colour coordinator guru. I bought a DC Marvel Flash shirt (like Syirah's!), a beige cardigan, and a pair of Chuck Taylor sneakers. I've upgraded from size one, to a size two. I'm growing up, NERD! You all can no longer call me size one, because now i am a size two! :) Today was fucking fun. Though that British bitch is grounded and she's going to get fucked for being inactive on msn.

Name That One "Special" Guy And Answer
40 Questions About them.

(1) What is his name?
Muhammad Syahreem.

(2) Is he your best friend / crush /
boyfriend?
Boyfriend.

(3) How long have you known him?
Months.

(4) Does he go to your school?
He's too dumb for mine.

(5) Has he dated any of your friends?
I wouldn't consider his ex-girlfriends, because they were together before me, and i knew his ex-girlfriends after that.

(6) Have you ever lied to him?
I wouldn't. Swear.

(7 ) Do you even talk to him?
No. Why should i.

(8) Can you imagine life without him?
I wouldn't be learning guitar tabs for his sake.

(9) Would you ever punch his face?
Yes, why not!

(10) Have you gone places with him?
Yes.

(11) Would you save him from a house
on fire?
No. He's not too dumb to find the exit.
Hopefully. He's not that smart, gyeah!

(12) Does he have a favourite sport?
I don't fucking care.

(13) What's a favourite memory you've
had with him?
Our first date. He put his hands on my waist and squeezed me when we were watching the fireworks. And it gets cuter, he even asked for my permission to leave for Changi, when i wasn't even his girlfriend.

(14 ) Do you know how much he weighs?
I don't fucking care.

(15) How about his height?
I don't fucking care.

(16) Does he sleep with stuffed toys?
Yes.

(17) Has he ever stalked you?
Just sent me home, ONCE.. in two months.

(18) Do you love him?
That makes him my boyfriend.

(19) Does he wear any cologne?
Sometimes.

(20) Has he ever sang/play a song just
for you?
Played the guitar, but nothing dedicated to me, nothing was. EVER. From him, no.

(21) Have you ever yelled at him?
Yes.

(22) Are you and him going to be
friends forever?
If things don't work out.. I don't think so!

(23) Has he ever made fun of you?
He called me fat and i almost cried.

(24) Would you feed him to tigers?
No. I need to eat too :)

(25) Is he smart?
HONESTLY, NO.

(26) Does he wear glasses/contacts?
Yes. Grandfather glasses.

(27) do you know where he lives?
Yes.

(28) Where is he right now?
I don't fucking care, even as his girlfriend
:)

(29) Why did you choose him for this
survey?
Because i know that i can't answer all the questions above, that's prove that i am a bad girlfriend. Yes! So can i get a half-time? Break?

(30) When's the last time you've seen
him?
Days.

(31 ) Are you currently talking to him
right now?
No. I wouldn't want to, anyway.

(32) Do you miss him?
Yes.

(33) Has he ever broken your heart?
I WOULD BE DEAD ENOUGH NOT TO ANSWER THE SURVEY.
(The question is such a fucking classic. Common sense.)

(34) Has he ever liked you?
I don't think so? Go! Ask him.

(35) Have you ever given him anything?
Until anything becomes everything.
(God. I sound so serious.)

(36) Do you plan on giving him
anything soon?
Couple stuff. Though, it's embarrassing.

(37) Do you know what his middle and
last name is?
Syahreem. His dad is Osman.

( 38) When's the next time you'll see
him?
I think, next week? Two weeks?

(39) Last Question: Through this whole
survey, were you only thinking
about him?
Only because i had to, not that i intentionally want to keep him on my mind. I would rather take junk then think about him.. again!

OHHHHHHHHH. I WANT A DAISY ROCK GUITAR.

These two months seemed like a waste, more than an effort.

I have to admit that i was looking forward to October, 24th. But you're just a sucker.
You can forget about everything.

"LAUGH-OUT-LOUD"
Happy second, Baby.

And you can put that blame on me.

November, 17 2007 at Lime Magazine Sonic Bang
Sentosa, Singapore.

How about that nuh, CSSKR?
This implies to CSSKR who are actually interested and looking forward to Sentosa with me, if no, i'll bring along some of my other friends, because as a group, i don't see us being together :| I already miss mommy.

^^ I can hardly stop grinning now, because i am talking to him.

Not my boyfriend, but him. Him, stripper/ hardcore dancer.
Nothing more but just a friend. I seek his company for tonight.

Him, shake-meeeeee.

STRICTLY FOR BEST FRIENDS.

I really wanted to blog last night, but i was really, really, really exhausted.

I met Zacky, Sri, Karmillah and Fuch at DXO. Adi, Shas, Yan and Nor at the Marina bay. Bimo and Sherheeragh at the Marina steps, and Nerd too. How exhausted was i. It was indescribable! Strictly for best friends. Thanks Zacky and Sri. I had fufufufuuun.

We should hang out more often.

Dry mop and I.



"Excuse me, can i have one balloon for my little sister?"
Thanks Zacky!



Saw mata steam.



Adi. Millah. Saw. Dad. Mom.
^^ Strictly because we're best friends.



This is Adi Putra. Hehe.
I missed b.
^^ It's great to see him again!



I love you, Sri.



Saw muka penat.
Sorry, malas nak rotate.

I love you, slaykay!



4 days and counting.

UPDATES

I got my overall results, oh well, congratulations Saw!

I got fourth in class, but i swear you wouldn't believe the marks i scored.
^^

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I HAVE JET BLACK HAIR!

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Qilah baby just got a hair cut like mine! JIWA!
Sri asked me out tomorrow, but i can't confirm. Like, i really want to meet her.
Cum just left me to have a big breakfast alone tomorrow.
Rara is the punani, i shall keep my blog posts more personally or else she'll tell other guys about it. Bahahahahahahaha.

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2nd monthsary on the 24th October with you.

Baby. I miss you terribly.
Soon, you'll be busy with work. And then, comes your voluntary work for national service.
And you said you wanted to go back to school.

I can't stop you from being who you are.
If you have to work, i understand. You wanted to join NS because you fear of being left out from your friends. You wanted to go back to school because you said it's a waste of youth.

Somehow, i am stuck among all your decisions.
If you're going to be long gone, where does that put me on?
You even said you'd fear that i'd take some other guy out, why not. You're not here, not even physically as a boyfriend. You can't even think straight. Hais.

SUE AND I WERE SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL TODAY.
WTFFFFFFFFF.

Hahahahahahaha.

Today was a blast!

Alright, first, i would like to apologize to Cum for dissing you off for our big breakfast date. I fell asleep after i took a shower. I woke up and Sasa was texting me. We met up with him, being late. So before going to Parkway, i went to meet Sue at Tampines to get some things registered. So after that, we ate hot dogs and she went home leaving me alone to PP. After waiting half an hour, Sasa came with his friends. He apologized and said he'd treat me. He asked me what i wanted, i said anything. And when he came back, he bought me Anything. Hahaha. Then Sue came to PP and we walked off to ECP. All seemed to be a perfect day with a clear blue sky when suddenly it rained heavily. We seek shelter, though we were still wet. I was saved by Remee as he stood in front of me in the rain. That was courageous. Some more, with an umbrella blowing at his head. LOL. When the rain deceased, we walked back to PP as fast as we could. Then we sat at some mall i've never been to and just slacked. I loved today. Wheeeee! I get hugs from each and every one of them. Hurray Fahmy. I got your ass. Hurray Remee. I got your's too. I so own these flat ass guys' asses. Sasa said, no spitting. So bottom line, it was gggggggreat. Despite the rain.

When all seems like a perfect day.
Thank you, Sasa.



Fahmy and Fahmy.



The bastards.
:D



Remee.



Sasa's portrait of his own self.
LOL. The nose was modified by me.



Bitch.



My umbrellalalalala man.



Picture of the day.
JANGAN BERSEDIH. KITA PANCAKE.

If you could read the shirt,
how i wish i stayed single.



You see these bitches?
I feel like stuffing them in plastic bags and throwing them away.



Honestly, Syahreem.
You do make me feel insane.



Cock eyes.



Selamat hari raya, mommy.



See those cheekbones?
I got them from my mommy, i got them from my mommy.



A family portrait.



Second day of raya.



By the way, mommy was pestering me to get my hair done again.
So i did. Now it looks so concaved. And yes, my hair was blond.
I dyed it black and it turned out brown.

Mommy. Are you happy with my new cocky concaved hair?!

Syahreem's void.



Fireworks.



Fireworks.



Fuch. I COPIED YOU.
I got this too.

So alright. Last night, after our last break fast and the official ending of the month of Ramadhan. I went out at around 8.40 and met Baby at his void. We played fireworks and wrestled each other until i cried laughing on the floor. Had fun during malam Raya. To chose it between him and my family, i'm glad :D I went home late after, and mom asked if i wanted to tag along to Geylang. I really wanted to but my sister came home late so i stayed up till dawn waiting for them to come home with Baby accompanying me and smoking alone at home. Raya was annoying on the first day. I only got to smoke a stick. WTF.

Annoying lady. Brat. Old man.
HAHHHHHHAHAHA.



My mom's step-mom's side.
From left, top, mom, dad.
Bottom, Shinx, Nani, Tok and me.

I look so urrrrrfgh.



Still, they're siblings.



I looked like Halloween's satisfaction.
-.-



Urfffffffff. FUGLY.

I hated first day. Annoying relatives, can't you just fuck that?
Getting a haircut tomorrow. Mom's treat! Looking forward to tomorrow's.

CSSKR: RAYA OUTING SESAMA?!

Finally, Syawal has come.

Every Muslim in Singapore, Malaysia and around the world who knew their responsibilities as a Muslim should have fasted. And in return, we get a whole month of Syawal, seeking forgiveness among one another. Thank God. I pulled through. And i only fasted five days, as i recounted my calender ^^

Saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya kepada semua kawan-kawanku di sini. Saya ingin meminta maaf jikalau selama ini telah terkasar bahasa dan menunjuk perasaan dengki. Harap dimaafkan. Selamat hari raya minal wa faizin (i still don't get that part on the radio!)

Liar, liar, if we're keeping score.

God! You really think you have balls? I hate you and everything you do. You walk around like a fucking dick. And every time you're near, you know i get real sick. Nothing to hide, believe what i say. We drifted apart. Thank me for everything i ever did for you. If it makes you a favour, i'll take back every three words i've said too! Sayang, you won't know what's coming to you. And i make sure that it's going to hurt you so much like a horse's dick stuck in your mom's ass. So much for your love! Bastard!

You're so stupid. There's nothing in your head.

Liar, liar, it takes one to know one.

Never thought not having you here now would hurt so much.

I still miss my boyfriend. I hate the facts that we were so near yet so distant. I hate comparing him with my previous ex-boyfriends but sometimes i wish he could just be like the rest. Five minutes was not enough. I need you to be with me for now. I need you.

Oh, and great news, Kidos is coming back to Singapore.
For business purposes but we actually considered to meet up. It's been eight long months since he departed for Thailand. Leaving me with his promises, he was always a man of his words. Though things between us didn't last like we planned for, i think we're even better as friends. I could wish to have you back but i know we will never turn out like what we used to. I moved on, but i'm still here for you. Sometimes, i wonder if Baby could ever replace you..

My Tiffany.

This is Fuchinu. It's been months and i missed the hell out of you already.
I remember the time when we first met. You'd drag my hand and we started talking like we knew each other very well. I miss your crap. And your meow. And the time when i ran away from home, you kept telling me to go home. LOL. I miss you terribly, my dear cat. I'll be counting the dates until i get to see you again. I WANT A HUG!

And photography pictures with me!!!!
:) IMY DEARLY.

You want the truth? Baby, i'm not alright.

I asked you if you were happy by my side, you told me yes. When you asked me why, i know you felt a sense of queer. I never expected much from you because i know i was never demanding. They say never put hopes on a relationship, well, i didn't. But it just had to turn out this way. I don't know why i am always the one to apologize and save this relationship, apart from because i love you, i am just wondering for once, if could just stand up for our relationship. I might be gone, who knew?

If you loved me, you'd fight over whatever i say. When i said you're dumb, you'll just laugh along. Boy, what's wrong with you. And when i broke down last night, i told you it was nothing, you just said "OK". I was ready to tell you why i did, but you were too engrossed yelling at that stupid horror flick movie along with your friends. Now, i'm just asking you to cut me some slack, and you think i'm asking for an official break-up.

BOYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU!
WHY WOULD I WANT TO SWALLOW WHAT I'VE SPIT!
SOMETIMES I WISH YOU'D UNDERSTAND ME!

It was a miracle getting to know you,
A blessing god sent to me
To heal my wounds
U’re the angel he sent and forever I’ll treasure that

I still remember the 1st time we chat
Fooling around like we known each other way before
The glare of ur eyes
That shows the future happiness we will share

How can I ever repay u?
U’re a miracle to me
Enlightening my every darkrooms
And setting happiness in em

And whatever happened was a blast
Smiling and sharing each others pain
We were meant to be besties
Fated since the day we found each other

When I was down,
U’re always there to cheer me up
Telling me its not over
And to gather my strength and fight it all

How can I ever repay u?
U’re a miracle to me
Enlightening my every darkrooms
And setting happiness in em

If u are ever to leave me behind
I’ll cry and beg u to stay
Cause I am nothing without u
That’s how much u mean to me.

That's what Asrizal said. And i broke down crying.

A reunion with my uncle.

It's been two years since we last talked. I bumped into him at Geylang.
And now we've been on the phone for hours. I missed you.

Saw sayang my own uncle.
Yeaaaahpa.

So alright, this post is going to be short.

It has nothing to do with you, though it just makes me open up a subject.

I did not do any researches but i know it from my basic sense. About girls like me and their way of eyeliner didn't start from you. From what i know and from where i observed it, i used to be a fan of literature arts, so i guess i got the concept and idea from Cleopatra, that is- have you watched a movie about it? I'm guessing, not.

About me, and i am representing other girls out there, there is no deal about thick eyeliner or how we try to emphasize our eye lines. Obviously, it didn't start from you, but if you wish to put it that way. Stop editing your pictures because you make other girls look better than you. So, there's this person who thinks we (as in me and all other girls who wear thick eyeliner) are following her, because she said she never saw me put on massive eyeliner four months ago? Those who knew me longer, is that agreeable? So now, anyone up for your own thought of that? Of how someone thinks she invents eyeliner tips and styles? Reply.

If i had balls, you could suck me.



What's with the "Fatima" outside a chapel siaaaaaah!



It's not horoscope.



Me and my best friend.



I need to redo my eyebrows again.



Saw is light.
And Cum is a darker shade of gray.



Baby. You're almost three now.
Time flies so fast with you around.



It's been ages since i wore this top.
This is the third time i wore the shirt.

Because i am missing imaginary monroes and labrets.
:(



Kita cuieeee apek bus.



The iced milk tea here is great.
Don't look at her, though.
:P



We stalked this couple because Karmillah told me to take a picture of how minah tuds get the hot guys. And they were holding hands at town. SAMPAH MASYARAKAT TAK BETOL!